I just found out what I suffer from. An existential crisis.

"An existential crisis is a state of panic or feeling of intense psychological discomfort about questions of existence."
" A sense of being alone and isolated,
The realization of one's own mortality, or the belief that there is no afterlife; or
A realization that one's life has no destined, supernatural, or in some cases external purpose or meaning."

Sourced from wikipedia

It started when I read about death in the Science Center in Sec2 or Sec1, I think. Yeah, it was extremely depressing. I tried to distract myself by reading, playing dota and stuff, but sometimes it gets to me. Really feel like dying sometimes.

The way in which many people solve this problem is through religion, however, I can never bring myself to believe in fairy tales. I solved this in sec2, by pursuing knowledge, however in Sec3 it returns, with periods of knowledge and fulfillment interrupted by periods of emo-ness.

I NEED TO STOP THINKING TOO MUCH! ARGH!

Has anybody here even had a existential crisis too? Is there any permanent way of solving it?